The only way to start this blog is to just lay it all out on the table.
Why do we put ourselves in situations where we know we will get hurt no matter what happens in the end. And why knowing the end, we are content with what's going on now, in the present? Yeah it's said that enjoy the present and don't worry about the future but what if the future is full of pain, tears, and dark clouds? Can the sunshine today make up for it still?
I don't know the answers to that or I wouldn't have put it on here. But it's so weird that someone will constantly chase something they can't have no matter what. But this isn't "I need him.. err, I mean it!" It's more of a "hey this would be good" kind of a chase.
Why do we occupy ourselves with just one thing at a time and give it all our time and attention and just say f to the world? Wouldn't, for our own sanities, we want to surround ourselves with lots of things and divide our attention so there is no way you could really get hurt? But we don't. Somehow we just can't get the idea imprinted in our minds that it is better for everyone to not just be all about one thing. No matter how many times we get hurt, no matter how many times our hearts break, its the same thing over and over again.
Do we learn? Do we tell ourselves we won't make that mistake again? That we won't go that way again and actually mean it? We can tell the world and ourselves that we are perfectly fine but are we really? How long can we lie to ourselves? Is it healthy?
No, no, no!
No to being stupid ever again!
No to falling for these stupid tricks of this stupid game!
No to ever crying or felling sorry for myself ever again!
No to laying here and feeling shame!
No to being unhappy just because this one didn't turn to be him!
And no to feeling unworthy ever again!
It's time to listen to All about us by Tatu, peel an orange, and enjoy the sun because no matter the clouds, there will always be sunshine after.
^enjoyin the sun so much that my world went
sideways!
Peace out <3
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